Hard Week

This week has been hard.  As in I flew all the way to mars just to jump off. I keep hoping that my new medication will kick in.  But so far I just feel crappy, tired, irritable, paranoid and sad all the time.  Today I spent most of the day crying and I could not stop it.  And trying to hide it from my two sibling was hard. Most of the time I just said I poked my eye.
I remember when I was swimming last summer out pretty far on the west side of the island.  I was never scared of the water or animals that live in the ocean so I would push my limits when I swam.  I had my flippers and snorkel on and dived down for a shell when I got caught by some netting someone threw away.  I didn't panic and grabbed for the net.  I can hold my breath for along time so I wasn't worried.  After a while of me trying to untangle myself I could feel my lungs start straining. scared now I cut my hands pulling on the lines of the net. I got free but I got mad at myself for not having a back up plan. All the people I know that dive or snorkel carry a dive knife for a safety back up plan.
Working thru my life now I try and give myself a back up plan for safety.
Since I still don't have my mental self under control or steady yet My back up plan consists of Doctor visits and my family.
I hope that I will be able to live with it and not in fear of it soon. but until then Ill just keep to my Doctor visits every two weeks.

Kindest Regards,

MOrgan

Halloween!

Halloween was so much fun.  We did trunk or treating which is like the traditional trick or treating but we have all our vehicles in our church parking lot with the trunks decorated and then kids can go from trunk to trunk in a well lit area!  We also invite our fire dept to come and participate so they bring one of their fire trucks.  It's a blast and my family loves it!!
I love dressing up and it took forever but it was so worth it!!  I was a sugar skull or skeleton and it took about 2 hours to get the make up on.....crazy right!
There was fireworks and a huge bonfire but I think the best part was when I took my brothers to a haunted house after and got pizza with my sisters friend.  It was just nice to hang out!
Hope you had a great halloween!
Boo!!

MOrgan

Vacation??? Me? Cooool!

Ok so at the beginning of the summer my sister showed me a website that her favourite band was on.  They had made a country music festival and put it on a cruise!   Sounds cool right?  Well it goes from Miami Florida to the Bahamas!!  She had asked if I would consider going and after looking thru the whole website to meditating on it for a day, I agreed. Its a great vacation and Im really excited!
It was going to be me and her then we added our friend to come with us. Who cant come...so then we added another person. Who also..cant come..
Well we were just going to leave the last ticket and go.  But then Coralyn had a great idea of bringing our little sister Olivia!!   So we told her the other day and she flipped out!!!  She's so excited and can't wait to swim with dolphins. I cant wait to look at all the great places and read on the beach!

We leave in 17 days for paradise!
heres the link for the website if you want to take a look!
FGL Cruise!!!!


MOrgan!

BOO!

I love Halloween!!!
It is my time of the year that I love with all my heart!
christmas is fine but  time of year where I get to dress up and no one "Bats" a eye.
I dress up act crazy and its the time of year when I'm actually active on my blog!!!  
My super secret costume is in the works and I love not telling anyone!!  MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

cheers,
MOrgan

What would you like to hear today?

What would you like to hear today?

People.  We all get up in the morning and go to bed at night. We breath air and drink water. We try our hardest, whether it's work, school or play. Everyday we talk to people. Wouldn't it be nice if we heard something, nice? Uplifting? Special? Kind? Helpful? Loveing? 

Gandhi said; 

"Be the change you wish to see in the world"

In your world. It includes the people around you. The man on the bus, the kid waiting in line, the women sitting at Starbucks. 

If we take a moment of our time just to say hello? Or ask how they are we could be making their day a bit better and at the same time changing our world. 

Today, I wanted to hear a

Happy word. 

And it happened when I said hello. 

What would you like to hear today? 

BIRTHDAY POST!!!

To my darling little sister HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!

my sister had her 16th birthday on sunday the 19th of January. and so I must wish her a HAPPY DAY OF BIRTH!!!

you are absolutely crazy, adorable, sweet, loveable, strong, courageous, captivating, lovely, cute, amazing, perfect sister!!
I am so lucky to have you and love you so much!! 

 

beautiful girl!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVIA!!!!
LOVE MOrgan

In need of some TLC!!

Hello Darlings

It is the weirdest thing to wake up one morning and see that "oh, its november!".
I have had the fastest month ever!!  between work and life its hard to keep up and take care of your self!
I have had to wake up super early because I work early and I get back late so I don't have a lot of time to just rejuvenate, especially with family running circles around you.
I know that many other people have it wayyyyy harder then I do....but for me and my life, we need a little TLC like, every week!!
So here are somethings that I do to just slow my heart rate down.

#1
read a book.
this might not seem like much, but when your constantly on the computer, phone or with other people information is being pushed down your throat. its good for you to just sit back and read at your own pace. Reading can actually slow you down and refresh you so that you can have a clear mind and thoughts. and who doesn't want that?




#2
listen to music.
I lovvvve music! (DISNEY) and when I can I will just lay on my bed with a cloth over my eyes and just listen. To the words, the notes, the feelings everything! so refreshing. I also will put on a play-list and dust. I like to dust. ;)








#3
sit outside.
I often find that when Im stressed or uncomfortable it calms me down to be outside. I will take a cup of tea and sit on the deck and watch the cars go by or the people walking. and I can feel my energy start to level out and balance again by just being in a place with no walls and no ceiling.

these are my three refreshers and they help a lot!!!
what are yours? leave a comment and share with me what you do to calm down!

yours truly,

MOrgan