New Blog

Oh dear! My other blog had a melt down. I had at least a year on there and now its all gone! I am so sad that my hard work over a year was demolished.  So heres the cliffs notes version of what was on my other blog and a bit more.

I graduated in 2010 and wanted to take a year off to earn some money and figure out what I wanted to do with the rest of my life and where I want to go to university. In april 2011, I found out from a relative that her son who lives in Ottawa was looking for a nanny. I immediately jumped at the thought of me being a nanny for two little boys in the capital of Canada! and I was sure that I wouldn't have any difficulties with the kids, I have always had a baby in my extended family and was the one that held it at get togethers.

 I sent an email and heard back almost instantly that they would have me as there nanny.  I sorted out details, flights, packing. then on july15 2011, I flew out to the Ottawa airport and began my new adventure!

when I started my job I was a bit afraid. the first thing that I was afraid of was that I was in a city, and I didn't have any family or friends to support me or to talk to.  that changed pretty quickly thou!  I am a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints, and where ever you move there is always a church to go to!  the YSA ward here has been a beam of light in one of my darkest places!

I've been lost, bored, sad, angry and a whole bunch of other negative feelings. but I always manage to laugh when I'm with them!

the city also grew on me! I didn't get lost as much, and I started to find many cool things around town.

As the months went by, I was getting better at my job but I started to feel sick and sad, all the time.

I didn't realize that the feelings I was having were the first stage of minor depression. One day I just had a melt down. crying, couldn't talk, couldn't think and felt so sick. I locked myself in my room for the weekend. After I calmed down I had a talk with my employer and he told me that I should listen to my feelings.

So when november rolled around I decided to give my months notice. not because it was a bad job, but that I am only turning 19 in Dec and being responsible for two kids is hard. and i didn't want another melt down like that!

So there it is, I'm moving!  I'm very excited to be home with my family and my puppy! but I'm also torn apart that I will be leaving, who I believe are my best friends in the ward.

I leave December 18th. And I still have to send all of my stuff home.

 Theres the cliff notes! And I still have to upload my Bucket list!

(sigh).......well here goes! another blog. hopefully it will last longer than the last!

Till next time!

MOrgan!